Sacred Calendar Day Keeping : 10 Akbal.
Classic Count - West: Blue Black, Purple and Pink Skies of the Sunrise and Setting. Transitioning, Life Renewing Energies.
The 10 energy Manifesting, borning into the World, Completing, that which is coming up to do. Surrendering to extremes, that which is controlling. Allowing the Energy of Renewal to flow with New Insights, Inspirations that 'pop' as if from nowhere orientating aligning with Source Within where the Beauty and Serenity is here Now, you may allow that to be guiding and supporting that which is happening. It means dropping fighting and trusting to attain the bigger picture which is constantly expanding, using the mind as a tool with critical thinking and not sitting in right or wrong of absolutes.
As consciousness transitions and transforms there's renewal of energy like the sun rises and sets there a natural force, that is not forcing. Facing issues arising with humility were the ego is offered as payment, surrendering the need to control and manipulate the majesty of what is happening.
The next is about my life experience both light and dark which I have been processing and completing this day, these words petition for releasing and if you will extracting self from negative patterns in this truth speaking, if you care to continue. Thank you for being here and walking along with me.
Friendships Community and Groups
Thus far energy for personal friends, groups, chat rooms, pages avenues of communicating with others, it has been complicated and overwhelming. I am not able to explain or even claim to understand.
I apologize, I care to make right and rise, it is at the root of my life. I don't know about you? Me, there's nothing else than keep going and discover a way through the problems and out the otherside and that means new ways of being, new means I don't know until the happening because it's new.
On the outside it might appear to many I am perfectly healthy but the truth is I have been battling disease; but ultimately the battle is to end the battling, end the conflict within, it is ongoing.
Disease and The Will To Live.
Over 11,600 days ago or approx 417 Moons, year 1992, I found myself facedown, upside down, drowning in a dark soup of negativity that had eaten into my life-force energy and manifested as disease. The wake up burst through as I heard the words Relapsing and Remitting Multiple Sclerosis, (MS) and invoked my life flashing before me, my failings and miserable existence. An internal call sounding urgent alarm bells that are still ringing out. Time to do something, make right and a will to live burst through. A spark of self stepped forward with integrity and truth guiding, a new energy aligned with Source and Light was born admist the darkness, a new dawn and time to become the hero that I need, it's been 32 years and it's ongoing.
Thinking, Thinking Me.
The invisible thinking, the thinking thinking me, the shock of being told I had disease, a sword of truth slashed through the veil of deceit, pretending and the thoughts flooded through like a tsunami, the controlling and manipulating revealing a person empty, a poor poor me. It has been an ongoing warrioring in facing the voice of the of the 'enemy within' putting me down with words ''you are not good enough, nobody likes you, you are not worthy'' burying deep the light voice, inventing invisible walls of negative speak, which have been believed and assimlated, programming and conditioning infecting my 'World Tree.'
Right and Wrong, Attacking and Defending.
The game of inventing energies to keep me triggered, defensive or attacking always on the back foot with head in a spin, speaking lies and manipulations keeping me small and weak. I can trace this voice to the Multiple Sclerosis (MS) affecting the nervous system and nervousness is controlling, its painful and frightening.
This force so powerful, it has affected my walking, my whole being, attacking stability and balance. I see Mind Body Soul and Spirit are connected, symbiotic and when thinking is attacking with negative speak all the states of being are affected, seen and unseen.
I have been breaking free of self-restriction, it is possible and freeing what I see as being bound in a dark web of words. Each moment bringing opportunity and challenges an endless flow of possibility and potential to vanquish that which is binding and bring the dark into the the light of day. What appears the smallest of efforts, creates space for bigger efforts, that light the way.
My alignment is 'Nothing else to do than keep going and orientate towards responsiblity. There are those that walk before. Tribes of Light Light Beings Through History, that have aligned with Truth and responsibility there for acknowledging, remembering and thanking.
Thank You.
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